By Swami Chetanananda
I talk a lot about unimaginable possibility, but I don't talk enough about the fact that realizing an unimaginable possibility within our own individual lives is work and that it requires commitment.
Commitment is the center of gravity around which your own energy field can begin to reorganize itself as it sheds pathology and builds or takes on new structure. Without that center of gravity, we are constantly shedding old pathology and taking on new pathology, and basically swirling around in the same intellectual, psychological, and emotional toilet bowl that we’ve been swimming in since we were kids. That’s a long-winded explanation of my term, disappointments of our ancestors.
Commitment is really, really powerful. And if you have any value for the quality of your own life, there has to be commitment. When I started out in practice, I could look around both in myself and around me and understand what the quality of my own life wasn’t. Understanding what your life is not is a really good place to start. Beginning to reach inside yourself beyond your tensions and your pain to a deeper place inside you that you can experience as beautiful, and developing and cultivating within yourself the capacity to hold that space, is a beginning of a transformation of your whole mind and your whole experience of your life.
The work itself is actually not that complicated. The way I would describe it is: every day we have to become present with our own pain and our own disappointment. We have to separate that sensation from the story, because the story is always bullshit; not just sometimes, but all the time. The story is bullshit.
The work is coming into the present with your pain and your disappointments and confusion, and simply holding that sensation until it dissolves. Using the simple tidal motion of your breath to dissolve it brings about a release of all of that accumulated and suppressed pathology and transforms it and releases it into what it essentially is anyway, which is creative energy—which then becomes available for you, for your system, to create new structure from.
Holding that space over and over and over again makes us very much more capable of holding the experience of the sensation and releasing the trauma, and in developing that capacity, slowly we shift into the experience of the movement of the breath inside of us. That sensation—how good it feels to actually breathe—becomes available to us, and from that experience of the breath within us, the awakening of our creative energy begins to be expressed in a whole different dimension, and it goes on from there.
Fundamentally, all growth requires commitment. When I lived in New York with Rudi, I used to sleep by the door of the meditation room on an air mattress. I used the only pair of pants I owned as a pillow, so that when Rudi peeked his head in the door early in the morning, I just whipped my pants on and got dressed, and we’d go for a walk. We used to walk down in the West Village. This was at a time when SoHo had potholes in it that were 8 feet across and 4 feet deep and bricks were falling off the sides of buildings as you walked by. It really looked like Berlin in 1945. We’re walking along one day, and I wasn’t long out of Indiana, so this was my first urban experience. We used to walk, and Rudi wouldn’t say much during these walks, we just walked. One day we’re walking along and Rudi looks over and says to me, “You can’t want it one day and not want it the next and ever get anywhere.” That’s all he said to me the whole walk. Maybe that’s all he said to me the whole week. But I understood very well what he meant.
There is an unimaginable possibility available within every single living person. No matter what your disagreements or differences with anybody, that’s a very good reason to respect them. The realization of that unimaginable possibility that it’s available to you—it’s available, it’s not free. It doesn’t cost you anything; it requires a commitment and a consistent, simple effort. That commitment and consistent simple effort will awaken and release in you a creative energy that is more powerful than 100 atom bombs. It has the capacity to completely transform you and in the process, not kill you but make you even more alive. And reveal to you the simple and profound intelligence that underlies all of creation.
Forty-five years ago I committed myself to the realization of an unimaginable possibility. I’m still totally, totally committed. Whatever else I’ve done, popular or not, for the last 45 years, every single day I have made contact, aligned myself in and generated a flow from that unimaginable possibility, which has transformed not only my life, but a lot of other lives as well. So it’s good to think about the finest thing you could possibly hope for from your life and commit yourself to its realization in some way.